My mother emotionally blackmailed and threatened me into getting a student loan saying she didn't have money to pay for my college since I dropped many classes and I had autism so attending a working in and being accepted to a menial job was hard. I eventually was convinced, but later I found out if I cancelled the loan I could stop the accruing of interest and stop going to school and pay then come back to school. I did that then my mother told me I was not welcome at her house over the phone and I was in terror for about half an hour looking for someone to stay with, but eventually I called my mom and she changed her mind. I was traumatized. I thought I would be homeless. Later, she secretly got out a loan from the bank instead of the university, and I got mad but she didn't care. Later, years later, she apologized, and she is paying, and I may get a job soon. Is it my sin?